stop!

I think I'm really stupid.
People are running away, and I am the only one left suffering.
I should say, tell them what is my problem.
But instead, I keep quiet, doing what I'm supposed to do..
Everyone is enjoying their work, but how about me?
I am 100% sure that people are using me to be comfortable, to relax.
I should stand for myself now, now, tomorrow, now!

the ambitious me

Life is too short to have regrets..


OK, so I have so many things I WANT to do.
I have so many things to achieve, things I wanna learn before I get older.

Once I have mastered Korean for about 80%, I want to learn a new language.
I want to learn Japanese, but afraid I'll be mixed up with Korean, so maybe I should learn something like French, or Spanish or Italian..OK that's one thing..

another thing, I think I should further my studies. To have a better future in my career. I need to be higher than other people, I need to have the advantage than the others, I need to be special, so that I can sell myself.

I'm gonna need to do more research, look for scholarships, career opportunities.


I'm going to challenge myself.
I give myself ONE YEAR. One year to collect experience, one year to prepare everything before I step onto the second level.

Advice to myself is,
no turning back, life is too short to have regrets, learn when you still have the opportunity, work hard when you still have the strength, always think positive and AIM for the BEST!

소원을 말해 봐

I have so many things I want!

So attention to Mr. Santa, this is my wish list:

I want an IPOD, ipod classic is better xp
I want a new handphone, better still, a samsung or an iphone ^v^
I want money! I want my balance in the bank account to be like this by end of this year--->
RM8,899,999.99(it has to be specific, I believe)hahahaha! and I'll withdraw all of them before they disappear!
I need a pair of comfortable shoes too.
and I need get rid of the fats I have been living for the past 8 years too.x_x


But above all, MONEY is the #1 priority in the list, Mr. Santa
I have been a good girl, daughter and person all these while.
I give you a choice,you grant my wish or I'll ruin this coming christmas.hahaha*turns crazy for listening to christmas songs 12 hours a day*

Thank you Santa!
Send my regards to Rudolph :*

finally..

I have finally started doing a part time job! It has been a week, and hell my body aches especially my feet!I walk from home to the train station, more walking and standing at the shop, and same goes when I'm going home. So, basically I stand for at least 8 hours a day and get to sit down for about 3-5 seconds during work.
I purposely don't sit hoping for not being labeled as curi tulang.haha
But my shoes are all problematic! So far I have worn 3 different pair of shoes and every one of them had tortured my feet.
I seriously hate my job at first but I'm slowly getting a hold of it and started to like it. But not entirely, just a bit. Since I'm a newbie, most of the people are very helpful but there are some who accept me as a disturbance(or maybe it's just me who thinks too much about it).
And my aim here is, I hope I work here at the bookstore until the end of month and getting other job next year.
I know working is tiring, but I told myself since I'm still young and healthy, I should work really hard and earn more and more money. I wish I have the strength to do over time for like every day.hahaha*mati*

I'm back ^^

I am back~~~~sorry for not updating this blog.*sigh*

*Pictures updated after had a slow talk with my crazy phone XD*

Damn!What's wrong with my phone, I can't connect it to the my laptop-_-
I wanted to show the whole world my new nail polish.LOL
I bought at The Face Shop.hahahha.Lina 언니 has been feeding me with thefaceshop posts and I told myself to go and buy something for myself.=p

I bought the nail polish..well 2 bottles actually, 1 is brownish,very light brown,it's nice!My friend bought it too after seeing it =p but if you put many layers of it, it looks kinda like purplish. The second bottle is kinda like gold,silver,greenish^^
and there are cheap! After discount it's only RM4.13 each!hahahahaha..I WILL GO BACK TO THAT STORE!꼭!ㅋㅋ



The result of my brownish nail colour^^






And also bought a moisturizing mask sheet! It's cheap too!!Only RM4.83 after discount!The actual price was RM6.90...hahhahaha..I bought only one-_- I REPEAT..I WILL GO BACK THERE AND SHOP FOR MORE..
The sale will be until the end of next month, if I'm not mistaken.LOL
*damn my sony phone*





My Lady Gaga nail colour =p blue~~~



And..my nail colour collection so far ^^

I would like to buy more..^^ because to me..colouring my nails is one of my stress-reliever activities.하하^^p


After 3 job interviews I went so far, none of them has responded..
and like everyone said, 'it's the end of the year, so it's not the right time for companies to hire people..'
well, I believe my time is not here yet..I'll keep searching, keep correcting my resume, search for a part time job first.

I was thinking to attend NIOSH program because I think having its certificate will give me a brighter future since I have a degree in chemistry and I'll be working with chemicals etc..so, I think NIOSH cert is gonna be great.


I think I can be an MSG indicator. When I eat something that contains the so-called ajinomoto, my head will start to ache.
Oh..*knocks the head on the wall*

L.O.S.E.R

All of you criticize me when you see me doing nothing,
maybe you can't see me going back and forth babysitting the kids.
When I make a sound, all of you condemned me for saying unnecessary things.
I try to make myself noticed or heard but all I get is YOU-HAVE-NO-RIGHT-TO-SAY face.
All you see is, I do nothing, eat and sleep and not searching for a job.
And you feel mad or maybe regret for having a child like me who is lazy to find a job.

IF you don't know the truth, please don't make any assumptions.

I don't deserve to say anything or make a sound when I'm happy, when I'm frustrated, when I'm mad. I will learn to live with expressionless reactions now.

All I want to do is be away from home. Run away from everything that I have and start living my dreams without thinking of other people.
But can I do that?
I am rebellious but I am not the type you see on TV.

I have been thinking I am a useless daughter, student, or a person. I feel angry, but I don't dare to say in front of them.
I need to say nothing because everything I say will hurt people, I need to be feeling-less so I can continuously be taken for granted by these people around me.
I'm not joking when I say I feel useless, I think of that everyday because that is what people around me have been thinking of me.
I don't dare to say anything, I don't want to say 'I am angry' to them.


Now, does that make me a loser?

The first rejection

I still have a long way to go.
I just need to be a little patient.
So far, only Shell has rejected me.
I still have a few more companies to wait for. Got an e-mail that has got to do with a job that I wanted a few months ago. Maybe it's meant for me?Haha
Nevermind, I will just try and send my resume to them.
Now, I am just going to go for any opportunity that comes my way, whether I succeed or not, that's a different story.
I need to start driving again. Ah..headache!

Ah, what a dull raya it is going to be this year -_-