friends

As I move on, I can see that I'm starting to lose my friends.
Sometimes I feel nothing. Sometimes I feel empty.
Friends are everything to me.That was what I used to think. But now, I have to find something else so that being alone without friends is just fun!or more fun.
Now, I need to go and deactivate my fb.

Thank you, everyone!

Frankly speaking..
it was a wonderful experience..
Really..I had a great time..
and for today..I really thank all of you..
Thank you for everything..from the wishes to the flowers and presents..
I will cherish every moment..
Thank you
Thank you
thank you!!
I will remember that and will always be thankful for that.
I heart all of you!!

The End

This blog is almost dead.
Maybe I should just cancel this account soon.

life is dull

As life is getting duller and duller now I think it's time for me to find a new hobby. Well it's not that I have plenty of time to spend for my hobby but just a way to relieve the tense I get from work. Plus my friends are starting to extinct(purposely use this word). Is it me who does not bother to keep in contact or is it them who just don't care to reply my messages? Who cares, right?As long as I work my butt off best and get my paycheck at the end of the day. No doubt shopping is the best therapy. Getting to spend your hard earned money after spending endless hours stressing over work, interacting with psychotic customers and aching body parts magnificently soothes it all.

Lately I have been looking at apple website. I want an ipod, and I will buy it in December.haha. I know it's the end of the year..yeah I am saving my money for all the things I want..I want a camera as well..what else? A new phone, maybe.ahah!

It's my day off and *&^% I'm just staying at home. What an excellent way of enjoying my day off.yay!

Crazy by now

I must be crazy by now.
It's 2 am and I'll be working tomorrow.
But I'm still here, searching for promo flight tickets. I must be crazy.crazy crazy.
When can I start traveling around the world without worrying about anything else?!
hahahahaha.crazy crazy..
I have been looking for places to visit, cheap place to stay in Korea, ipod, handphone reviews, pictures past few days.
But I guess OUR plan to Korea will be canceled because of what happened 2 days ago.
Well, I am still cool about it if you wanna cancel it^^

The first big mistake

Hi everyone.
Sorry for not updating. Busy busy busy..
I have just applied to be a full timer now, my probation started yesterday..and yes, I had an interview with the BosseS.
Because of that interview with the bosses..after that 'talk' and that 'agreement' we made,the 'wonderful' interview I had, 'something not right' started to happen ..I know it was my fault..
I made one of the staff cry. GREAT.
Now I'll feel gulity for the rest of my life. Every time (has been 2 days now) people talk to her, she WILL definitely cry. So what should I do?
I say nothing except for feeling sorry for her.
and...I shall continue keep quiet before I say something that will hurt her even more.

I didn't know it will turn this way. If I had known earlier, I swear I won't do it in the first place.



I hope she'll get the thing she's hoping for soon.
I am sorry

Goodbye,uncle

He will now stop asking me what I'm doing now,
He will now stop what I want to be, what my dreams are,
No more of motivation words coming from him, because starting today we will not be seeing each other anymore.

3 months ago we had a great time together and 24 hours ago you left us all here.
It's very sudden.
I am still in shocked.
All I can say is, I am going to miss you.
Yes I am going to miss you.Really.
Thank you for all the advice and support you've given us.
You will always be in our hearts, uncle.


*Semoga rohnya dicucuri rahmat dan ditempatkan bersama orang-orang yang beriman.AMIN*

life is good

First of all, I am really really happy to be receiving a special book mark from one of the staff today ^^ It's blue, unique and a hello kitty.hoho

Secondly..
Today!We(just the part-timers) read the story written below at the receipt..It was so sweet and we were wondering who the writer was referring to..hohoho..
one of us might have a secret admirer now =p
Man I'm gonna frame that receipt and hang it to the wall ^^p


Tomorrow, I hate to work from morning till night and yuckkkk I hate it


but hey, life is good at the moment :D

December 30th 2010

It's already one month since I started working!Time flies! Even though my body aches almost everyday, it seems to get used to all the muscle pain and all by now.


I need to make new resolutions for 2011!
But 1 thing for sure, I wanna make more money NOW..and thinking how to make money!
Argh!!!Money, come to mommy!!!


All the things I want such as going to Korea and to have a piano, all have been granted this year:D and oh, I manage to graduate on time too,lol*the thing that I was worried for all these while*


So, what's next?

I love my job

Yes. I like my job.
Today I worked for 13.5 hours to get around 2만원 and hell my back hurts. I drag my feet when walking home.
And yes I still love it..
Ha!Ha!

I want to see them again!

So far I have met 2 customers who are VERY nice and really APPRECIATE what my friends and I did.
The first one was a guy, I guess he's being very grateful that night that he keeps on thanking me. From the moment when I helped him with the books, to recommending a book, to helping him with the book,and until before he's out of the store..he can't stop thanking me.
I was really really happy..and yes I can recognize him if I happen to see him again^^

and today, another grateful customer came to brighten our day. We wrapped all of her books as Christmas presents and later after thanking us, she went out..and about 20 minutes later she came again, bringing us 3 of Cadbury snacks! She said, 'Thanks for your hard work!' and even handed over another snack for us to pass over to our friend who helped her yesterday!

We were like, 'oh!!my!!Thank you so much!!Merry Christmas!!Please, come again soon!!'
and we are all HAPPY.


All I need is a thank you and a wide smile from a customer, and I am satisfied :D


This morning I was not in a good mood, but I changed that by saying everything's gonna be fine, good, and just don't worry with everything that will happen..and yay!something nice happened:D


I hope this continues forever!

stop!

I think I'm really stupid.
People are running away, and I am the only one left suffering.
I should say, tell them what is my problem.
But instead, I keep quiet, doing what I'm supposed to do..
Everyone is enjoying their work, but how about me?
I am 100% sure that people are using me to be comfortable, to relax.
I should stand for myself now, now, tomorrow, now!

the ambitious me

Life is too short to have regrets..


OK, so I have so many things I WANT to do.
I have so many things to achieve, things I wanna learn before I get older.

Once I have mastered Korean for about 80%, I want to learn a new language.
I want to learn Japanese, but afraid I'll be mixed up with Korean, so maybe I should learn something like French, or Spanish or Italian..OK that's one thing..

another thing, I think I should further my studies. To have a better future in my career. I need to be higher than other people, I need to have the advantage than the others, I need to be special, so that I can sell myself.

I'm gonna need to do more research, look for scholarships, career opportunities.


I'm going to challenge myself.
I give myself ONE YEAR. One year to collect experience, one year to prepare everything before I step onto the second level.

Advice to myself is,
no turning back, life is too short to have regrets, learn when you still have the opportunity, work hard when you still have the strength, always think positive and AIM for the BEST!

소원을 말해 봐

I have so many things I want!

So attention to Mr. Santa, this is my wish list:

I want an IPOD, ipod classic is better xp
I want a new handphone, better still, a samsung or an iphone ^v^
I want money! I want my balance in the bank account to be like this by end of this year--->
RM8,899,999.99(it has to be specific, I believe)hahahaha! and I'll withdraw all of them before they disappear!
I need a pair of comfortable shoes too.
and I need get rid of the fats I have been living for the past 8 years too.x_x


But above all, MONEY is the #1 priority in the list, Mr. Santa
I have been a good girl, daughter and person all these while.
I give you a choice,you grant my wish or I'll ruin this coming christmas.hahaha*turns crazy for listening to christmas songs 12 hours a day*

Thank you Santa!
Send my regards to Rudolph :*

finally..

I have finally started doing a part time job! It has been a week, and hell my body aches especially my feet!I walk from home to the train station, more walking and standing at the shop, and same goes when I'm going home. So, basically I stand for at least 8 hours a day and get to sit down for about 3-5 seconds during work.
I purposely don't sit hoping for not being labeled as curi tulang.haha
But my shoes are all problematic! So far I have worn 3 different pair of shoes and every one of them had tortured my feet.
I seriously hate my job at first but I'm slowly getting a hold of it and started to like it. But not entirely, just a bit. Since I'm a newbie, most of the people are very helpful but there are some who accept me as a disturbance(or maybe it's just me who thinks too much about it).
And my aim here is, I hope I work here at the bookstore until the end of month and getting other job next year.
I know working is tiring, but I told myself since I'm still young and healthy, I should work really hard and earn more and more money. I wish I have the strength to do over time for like every day.hahaha*mati*

I'm back ^^

I am back~~~~sorry for not updating this blog.*sigh*

*Pictures updated after had a slow talk with my crazy phone XD*

Damn!What's wrong with my phone, I can't connect it to the my laptop-_-
I wanted to show the whole world my new nail polish.LOL
I bought at The Face Shop.hahahha.Lina 언니 has been feeding me with thefaceshop posts and I told myself to go and buy something for myself.=p

I bought the nail polish..well 2 bottles actually, 1 is brownish,very light brown,it's nice!My friend bought it too after seeing it =p but if you put many layers of it, it looks kinda like purplish. The second bottle is kinda like gold,silver,greenish^^
and there are cheap! After discount it's only RM4.13 each!hahahahaha..I WILL GO BACK TO THAT STORE!꼭!ㅋㅋ



The result of my brownish nail colour^^






And also bought a moisturizing mask sheet! It's cheap too!!Only RM4.83 after discount!The actual price was RM6.90...hahhahaha..I bought only one-_- I REPEAT..I WILL GO BACK THERE AND SHOP FOR MORE..
The sale will be until the end of next month, if I'm not mistaken.LOL
*damn my sony phone*





My Lady Gaga nail colour =p blue~~~



And..my nail colour collection so far ^^

I would like to buy more..^^ because to me..colouring my nails is one of my stress-reliever activities.하하^^p


After 3 job interviews I went so far, none of them has responded..
and like everyone said, 'it's the end of the year, so it's not the right time for companies to hire people..'
well, I believe my time is not here yet..I'll keep searching, keep correcting my resume, search for a part time job first.

I was thinking to attend NIOSH program because I think having its certificate will give me a brighter future since I have a degree in chemistry and I'll be working with chemicals etc..so, I think NIOSH cert is gonna be great.


I think I can be an MSG indicator. When I eat something that contains the so-called ajinomoto, my head will start to ache.
Oh..*knocks the head on the wall*

L.O.S.E.R

All of you criticize me when you see me doing nothing,
maybe you can't see me going back and forth babysitting the kids.
When I make a sound, all of you condemned me for saying unnecessary things.
I try to make myself noticed or heard but all I get is YOU-HAVE-NO-RIGHT-TO-SAY face.
All you see is, I do nothing, eat and sleep and not searching for a job.
And you feel mad or maybe regret for having a child like me who is lazy to find a job.

IF you don't know the truth, please don't make any assumptions.

I don't deserve to say anything or make a sound when I'm happy, when I'm frustrated, when I'm mad. I will learn to live with expressionless reactions now.

All I want to do is be away from home. Run away from everything that I have and start living my dreams without thinking of other people.
But can I do that?
I am rebellious but I am not the type you see on TV.

I have been thinking I am a useless daughter, student, or a person. I feel angry, but I don't dare to say in front of them.
I need to say nothing because everything I say will hurt people, I need to be feeling-less so I can continuously be taken for granted by these people around me.
I'm not joking when I say I feel useless, I think of that everyday because that is what people around me have been thinking of me.
I don't dare to say anything, I don't want to say 'I am angry' to them.


Now, does that make me a loser?

The first rejection

I still have a long way to go.
I just need to be a little patient.
So far, only Shell has rejected me.
I still have a few more companies to wait for. Got an e-mail that has got to do with a job that I wanted a few months ago. Maybe it's meant for me?Haha
Nevermind, I will just try and send my resume to them.
Now, I am just going to go for any opportunity that comes my way, whether I succeed or not, that's a different story.
I need to start driving again. Ah..headache!

Ah, what a dull raya it is going to be this year -_-

Money money money!

To me, money has never been a problem.
Until this day, money is always there when I need them and I never feel I am short of cash or anything..
But ever since I finished studying, I think that money is always flowing out of my wallet and I feel the urge to find a job ASAP.
Now, no, everyday, the thought of NOT having money keeps playing in my head. I can't go out if I want or if I need to. I still have some loan left in the bank but I can't just rely on that now.
I am not saying I was a big spender before. I am not a shopaholic but I do spend. Not crazily.
I had a good relationship with 'money' but now..you see what happened? >_<

I just pray for any of the companies to call me for an interview.

Money money money!Come to me!

something..

I don't know what it is..but I feel like something is coming..
near me..
something good..something that will make me happy..
something that I am waiting for..
something I am hoping for..

whoah!if it truly happens..then this is what I call 'The Law of Attraction'


^^